Friday evening, after a full workday, Marc and I stepped into a different kind of shift. The kind that involves mud on your boots, a good pair of gloves if you’re lucky, and a whole lot of determination.
We had help from a really great friend and thank goodness for that, because what followed was part rodeo, part relay race, part comedy of errors.
Six goats.
Three sheep.
Countless steps, quick turns, near misses, and the occasional “you’ve got to be kidding me.”
We herded, chased, caught (and yes, sometimes missed), tagged, and finally loaded them into the trailer. By the end, relief settled in like a deep exhale. They were safe, settled, and ready for the night.
After we sent our friend home, thoroughly worn out (and probably questioning his life choices just a little), Marc and I turned to phase two.
Sixteen cages, prepped throughout the week.
Thirty-one chickens, tucked in after roosting.
That part? Almost peaceful. Quiet. Methodical. Choosing who would go where felt calm in a way the goat wrangling never could.
By 11:00 PM, everything outside was done.
And just like that, we were staring down a 3:30 AM departure.
The Loudest Place on the Farm Isn’t the Barn
It’s your own head.
Because somewhere between loading trailers and making coffee before dawn, the internal dialogue starts up… and it doesn’t whisper.
It argues.
“I love this life.”
“I hate this life.”
“I’d give anything to sleep in.”
“But look at that sunrise.”
“You can do this.”
“What are you even doing?”
It’s a full cast of characters in there, and not all of them are kind.
This winter pushed me in ways I wasn’t prepared for. There were moments I felt completely leveled. Brought right down to my knees.
But here’s the quiet truth that showed up alongside that struggle:
Every time I got back up… I stood up a little steadier. A little wiser.
But no amount of wisdom would ease the weight of the hardest list I ever had to make. Making the sale list with Marc might have been the hardest part of all.
Because if I try hard enough, I can make a case to keep every single animal.
Especially the goats.
Chickens are wonderful, but goats… they have a way of looking at you like they know you. Like they’ve been part of your story longer than they have.
But reality has its own voice too.
We only have so much space.
So much time.
So much energy.
And at the heart of it, this isn’t just a hobby. We’re building something. Raising animals well… and letting them go well.
That’s the deal.
Understanding that didn’t make the decision easy.
It just made it possible.
The Sale Day I Couldn’t Face
When morning came, I stayed home.
Marc and our friend went to the sale together, and I knew that was the right call. Some days you can carry it. Some days you can’t.
This was a “faucets would not turn off” kind of day. I was weepy.
When Marc got home, he told me everything went smoothly. The animals did well. Things felt right.
And then he told me a story I’ll keep tucked away for a long time.
Our little Button stepped into the ring.
People noticed her blue eyes right away, commenting on how beautiful she was.
And then, from somewhere in the bleachers, a woman said:
“Well, look at her… she’s cute as a button.”
No one there knew her name.
And somehow… they still got it exactly right.
Some things don’t need explaining. They just are. 💛
The Quiet After
The past few days have felt… different.
Quieter.
Calmer.
Like the whole farm took a deep breath.
Maybe we all needed it… humans and animals alike.
To the Ones Who Moved On
Gandolph.
Tulip.
Nubbie.
Bandit.
Jack.
Ma.
John.
Cheryl.
Button.
You left hoofprints on more than just the ground.
Because of you, there were tears.
And laughter.
And lessons I couldn’t have learned any other way.
Thank you for being part of this wild, beautiful chapter.
Moving Forward (Even When It’s Hard)
I keep coming back to a quote from Walt Disney:
“Around here, however, we don’t look backwards for very long. We keep moving forward, opening up new doors and doing new things, because we’re curious… and curiosity keeps leading us down new paths.“
And so we keep going… a little lighter, a little wiser, and still willing to follow this beautifully messy road wherever it leads next. 🍋

















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